in the world we live in, there is this unspoken idea that we are supposed to be constantly dialed in. right now, i am typing this from my macbook that is linked to my imessages with multiple windows open across my four gmail accounts. when did this become the norm even during summer vacation? anyone else in the same boat?
even with me being dialed in pretty regularly, something i have been working on is accessibility. it is one thing to have all of these windows on my screen open – it is an entirely different thing to feel an immense pressure to respond to every text, phone call, email, dm, etc. i am someone that has to be dialed in for work from august to may. we have been instructed to keep our cell phones on our desks in plain sight so we can see the alert if the school goes on lockdown (what a world we live in). this is in addition to me working in mental health and getting more texts than i could ever count about crises that need to be addressed immediately. when i am at work, this does not bother me because i knew that this simply came along with the job. but it is outside of work that started to chip away at me.
there did not seem to be boundaries around my accessibility. it is like i had made this unconscious decision to be equally accessible for anyone at any given point in time, no matter the reason for contact or my mental/emotional state of being at that moment. something had to give. this quote summed it up perfectly.
“you are allowed to change the price of what it costs to access you.”
i cannot tell you how much i needed to see this in print or how much it resonated with me. there were people that had access to me that did not deserve it. there were people who had access to me that was too easy considering the lack of reciprocity in our relationship. there were people that accessed me with heavy content without first checking to see if i had the capacity to hold it. but here’s the thing – i was, am and will be in complete control over who has access to me along with what it costs to access me. while the cost may not be monetary, it certainly includes things like reciprocity, compassion and loyalty, amongst other things.
have you stopped to think about what it costs to access you? do you need to change the price or is it fine as is?